Today

Today is a difficult day. I am trying to keep all the plates spinning but most seem to never even get off to a wobble and the others are crashing in pieces to the floor.

Today is one of those days where I must accept that, sometimes, life just does not work.

I don’t want a solution I don’t want a miracle…….I would miss the lesson if I asked for it all to be fixed……

I just want Jesus.

As I sit in a puddle of my own tears, ignorance, rebellion, like a child after a tantrum; half dressed one shoe on, hair matted and a dozen plates strewn across the room in various broken pieces, I will reach out to the only One that makes sense to me.